Never once did I dream I would make it this far
I once tried to kill myself in my car
Wrapped in the seatbelt, I leaned the seat back
Somehow kept my life, turns out I need that
Wasn't for another year that I learned how to rap
And that simple act put my life on track
Far from the best, much further from the worst
It gave me something to do with my time on this Earth
And it birthed a whole new side of me
I found a whole lotta worth I didn't know was inside of me
Now who I am is the man that I try to be
That is when I'm not battling anxiety

(Hook)
It's far from a dream to be the way I am
Hard not to nip the rose in the stem
How much more will it take the aftershocks pass
I won't take my life instead I'll take my life back
One day I wanna look back fondly
Like damn, I'm glad I didn't let me off me
Plans never go exactly how they oughta see
I am but a man and life is but an odyssey

I never let a tear drop unless its necessary
The chemicals ingrained are a debt that I carry
I can slip at any time, and I get that it's scary
But I won't let my parents watch their child be buried
So worst come to worst, I'mma lay in bed
With the covers pulled tight, right above my head
But nowadays when I do, don't pretend that I'm dead
Instead I take a little break from the lies I've been fed
By my own brain, my own damn chemistry
I am the reason that I'm struggling so desperately
Maybe I should seek help, outsource it medically
But I'm too afraid to change my wiring irreparably
Harshly dependent, guard all my friendships
'Cause without them my life would be senseless
Known to be a drag but they still drag me around
They're the humans that support me and I'm glad they've been found

(Hook)
It's far from a dream to be the way I am
Hard not to nip the rose in the stem
How much more will it take the aftershocks pass
I won't take my life instead I'll take my life back
One day I wanna look back fondly
Like damn, I'm glad I didn't let me off me
Plans never go exactly how they oughta see
I am but a man and life is but an odyssey

I've got a deep seated drive to be alone
That's why I spend most my time inside of my home
Don't be upset if I don't pick up the phone
I'll always call back when I'm better though
26 years old, 26 percent sure
That I'll live 26 more, keep the outlook pure
One quarter century, many happy returns
It's a mad man that laugh as he burns
Flame to the candle, ash to the urn
Too much pain to handle, man must be heard
Lest he be condemned to writhe in his hurt
Lest he believe he'd be free in the dirt
The circle is a cycle and the curve begins at birth
If it hurts it's probably vital is a lesson to be learned
I may talk a big game but haven't learned shit yet
But what I do know is I prefer life to death

(Hook)
It's far from a dream to be the way I am
Hard not to nip the rose in the stem
How much more will it take the aftershocks pass
I won't take my life instead I'll take my life back
One day I wanna look back fondly
Like damn, I'm glad I didn't let me off me
Plans never go exactly how they oughta see
I am but a man and life is but an odyssey